Fabulous News!

Goodbye 2019 - Hello 2020!

Still alive and GRATEFUL!

🎉 Fabulous news! 🎉 I got the latest results of my CA 27.29 blood test today that tests tumor cell markers! Before I started treatment and was literally dying with cancer in my breast, liver, lungs, adrenal gland, bones (pelvis, 3 vertebrae, and sternum). I could not have a conversation I was coughing consistently due to my lungs full of cancer. For two months I had to sleep sitting up because if I laid down I would choke from coughing in my sleep. I didn’t tell everyone that I was recommended to go to hospice as I didn’t want freak my friends and family out. I was preparing for my death, finding a death doula and getting my affairs in order. 🌹 💀 🌹

My amazing Russian oncologist here, plus other alternative and mainstream doctors that I highly respect encouraged me to do chemotherapy as it just might save my life. Due to the trauma of my BFF (who’s pants I’m wearing in this photo btw) dying I was petrified of chemo. I swore when I was first diagnosed over three years ago that I would rather die than do chemo. Well, my statement was tested!

When I dug deep into my heart I realized I cherished life and seeing my beloved son grow to be in his 30’s more then giving into my fear. So I chose chemo. It’s been harder then hell but dammit I’m healing!

When I first did the CA 27.29 test I was in the 900 range! Normal is under 40. I’ve watched my score slowly drop. Today I found out it was 46.7. Hot diggity dog, how awesome is that!

I have been operating on the premise that I’ve been given a gift of living longer, maybe a year or two more and I’ve been ecstatic about that! Life is such a gift, please don’t take it for granted. Now my mind is starting to shift to believe that with all these positive changes I’ve made perhaps I will live much longer then my 50th bday? That would be DIVINE! 💫🙌🏽💫

I’m so fucking grateful to be alive. Period.

Thank you all for the advice from my last post. (This is addressed to my Instagram peeps as I’m posting mostly there these days.) I spoke to my oncologist today and we’ve decided to delay chemo for two weeks so my double hip surgery (6 weeks ago) can heal a bit more. I’m relieved to have a break and committed to finishing the last four sessions of Taxol. Mahalo for the LOVE! Love y’all! ♥️

See how fast my hair has grown? 😉

Originally posted from Instagram on 12/10/19